buying happiness

You CAN buy happiness when it comes in a Betsey Johnson box! This what-a-deal! purchase turned my not-so-great day around pretty quick :)

Elizabeth Taylor

Elizabeth Taylor is best known for her lovely 'violet eyes,' many marriages, and jet-settler lifestyle. Call me an advertising nerd, but I love her for the icon she made of herself through branding! AdAge.com wrote a wonderful article in tribute to the legacy she left. <--click!

refocusing

That's it. I've had it with all the 'you should do this' and 'it'd be better if you did that.' I'm going to figure out something that I want to do, and just do it dammit! I want to be a designer! It's what makes me happy, and it's something I don't think I'll ever get sick of. So I'm throwing caution to the wind, and I'm just gonna go ahead and do it. This blog is going to act as my witness as well as my encouragement.

vacation dreaming...

While everyone is enjoying their spring break in Padre, I'm still here :/ But that's okay... working and getting stuff done! And taking the weekend to enjoy Oklahoma. Starting with a bath and a "Hawaiian Breeze" candle, so I can at least pretend I'm relaxing by the beach..

Any suggestions for things to do in Oklahoma? Preferably not too far away... We've only got a day and a half off work!

Loving Oklahoma

It's so much needed! With all this talk of being worried and stressed out, this break couldn't have come at a better time! While it will be a lifelong journey of mine to learn the art of being content, here's a few things that have inspired me in the past couple days:

-I'm thinking of creating Oklahoma tee shirts that are along this line of fun/silly/simple humor:

-I've got to learn more about HTML and website programming asap! That seems to be the direction society is moving, and I want to be on top of it!
-Saving up for a sailboat :) Something small enough to put on the lake here, but big enough we could spend the night in.
-Fostering growth in OKC. What a great city full of really, really excellent people. A few organizations that are going to do wonders for this city:
Keep it Local!
              -With so many hole-in-the-wall places, this is brilliant!
Homeless Alliance OKC
              -Read about their 'Real Change' initiative
I can't wait to be involved with OKC! Loving Oklahoma :)

small victories

On a bright note, I conqured my fear of Sara Sara cupcakes today, thanks to a little help from some super awesome friends (http://www.sarasaracupcakes.com/). I'm not scared of cupcakes (I promise I'm not crazy)... its just that its SOOOO WHITE in there! Its like I'm in a crazy room and any second they're going to strap me in. The chairs are white plastic, the pictures (as in the graphics inside them) are white, the floor, walls, and ceiling are all the same color white, the counter is white... etc etc and it's all inside a little white house with a white picket fence with fake grass. Its just kinda creepy, in my opinion. However, my carrot cake cupcake was well worth it :)

A day of curveballs

Well, today was interesting. A little frustrating, a little fun, but I guess the main point is I'm learning. Help came in an unexpected place today, and reminded me that there is a God... sometimes he speaks in a whisper... and sometimes you can't even really tell he's there. I get so angry.... but that's a tale for another time. My new friend said today that everyone is entitled to their own choices. You just have to accept that they're going to make choices and do things that you don't like or don't agree with, but at the end of the day all you can do is own up to who you are... and keep moving forward.
Oh, how true, but oh, how easily forgotten.

Too long, too long

It has been too long since my last post! Honestly I tried to update one day, but I forgot my password and almost resorted to starting all over. So glad I remembered it!

Hmm so what is there to catch up on... it's hard to think over the sound of my upstairs neighbor playing some music that should only be heard on the show Jersey Shore... :( Which was especially pleasent last week when I was stressed out of my mind, but couldn't consentrait because my door kept rattling with the beat of his tunes. But I got through it I suppose. There was lots of tear sessions and convincing myself not to punch the door again (because it reallyy hurt last time) and a bit of meditative shoping and wine to top it all off. I'm in a better place now, but still worring about the future. Worried I'm not going to do well in my Senior Seminar class (which wouldn't really be the end of the world but it sure as hell would be embarrassing), worried I'm not going to get a job and am going to spend a good part of the summer dirt ass broke, worried about whether or not I should quit my current job, worried about my friends (or lack there of apparently), worried about who I am/want to be/how people percieve me and if that self-conscious feeling will ever go away.... worried worried worried. 

There I got it out. At least I was finally honest with myself for once.

DETROIT!!

As I've said, I grew up outside of Detroit. Unfortunately, I probably won't be moving back, mostly due to lack of opportunity. But Detroit will always be my first home, and I will always hold a soft place in my heart for the city that once held the boom of hot business (music and motors). I don't think I'm alone in these feelings, which is why this Super Bowl ad left such a mark on me. As The Oklahoman states, "Chrysler's Super Bowl ad sends shivers of pride through Motor City."
So-oh-so true :)

new music

Band of the day- The Civil Wars, songs Barton Hollow and Poison & Wine. SO GOOD.

building blocks

I've decided that life is made up of a bunch of building blocks. The ones you're dealt may not always fit together perfectly, but they're the only ones you have, so you make it work. There's so many different way to stack them- none being better or worse than others... but you do have to be sure to stack them solid so they won't fall down. Little did I know that when mom and dad gave me blocks to play with, they were actually giving me life lessons ;) ha-ha!


Just an analytical rant from me... :)

littlethings

Like the 'ole cliche, it's the little things in life! Like beating the level on your new phone app obsession ... in my case 'Abduction!' ......... :-)

awesomeness

One thing you should know about me... I'm obsessed with The Office. It's completely awesome. The awkward, expressionless but-you-know-what-they're-thinking glances pretty much sum up my own life. So naturally, I thought this was completely amazing:


http://www.etsy.com/listing/64977199/the-office-dwight-shrute-macbook-decal?ref=sr_gallery_39&ga_search_type=category&ga_search_query=macbooks%2Bdecals&ga_category=geekery&ga_page=9


Hope you enjoy as much as I do :)

snowed in...

I'm sure I'm like everyone else in the US of A that got snowed into their homes today.... and for Oklahoma that includes tomorrow as well... and so begins cabin fever. Pics to come, I'm sure :)

picture perfect adventures

This is why I love Oklahoma City... If you just start driving in any given direction, chances are you'll find the coolest hole-in-the-wall locations just waiting to be discovered. That's what my friend Ali and I did this weekend, when OKC yet again surprised us with a 75 degree day in the middle of January. This was the outcome.... hope you enjoy :)

 

 
 

 
 
 

happiness

"There's no dollar sign on peace of mind, this I've come to know..." -Zac Brown Band

A) I'm obsessed with that band all of a sudden.

B) That line is my new life motto.

Happiness is a CHOICE! 

dreams and lessons

One thing you should know about me- I have some crazy dreams. Usually nightmares... but not like the kind where the boogie man jumps out of the closet or is hiding under the bed. Mine are usually a bit worse... It's fine, it's just something that goes along with what I'm dealing with in my life right now. The only bad part is that when I have those bad dreams, I usually can't stop thinking about them all day. My dream last night dealt with fear, and something precious being taken away from me (as is usual). But this something that was taken away was the one stable thing I had in my life. The one thing I thought would never leave or change. 
It was devastating... but the more I've been thinking about it, that dream kind of taught me something. You know when you were little, and what you learned initially you applied to everything else? For example, associating that red/orange glow with heat. Even if it's lego block, it has that color, therefore it might burn you. I had that kind of scenario with someone close to me while I was growing up. They were (and still are) very hot and cold with their moods- sometimes warm, loving, and completely present, and other times aggressive, angry, and removed. Always hoping for the good became exhausting after a while, because I knew that it could be taken away so easily. 
But what my dream taught me is that this childhood lesson doesn't have to follow me throughout my life. Just because the person in my story was the way she was doesn't mean that everyone I meet will be like that as well. Some people do stay constant. Some people do care more for others than they do for their own selfish desires. Some people really will love you even if you're in a bad mood (because in reality, your moods really aren't that bad). Some people really do see and notice you for the good and decent person that you are.  And some people won't leave when things get bad. 
Now for some wine and a girl movie with friends. Thank God for the good in life :)

 

monday type of wednesday

I've been walking around telling everyone it's Monday today. It's just one of those days, and it's only 10:30am! I even woke up this morning and thought, it's either gonna be a really good day, or a really bad one... I haven't decided yet.


Either way, I've decided to start my blog. It might be another one of the crazy impulses of mine that I think is a good idea until I actually get into the nitty gritty of starting it (kind of like my pet fish... that one's for you Andrew). We'll see. I think this will be therapeutic for me.


Efflorescence is word that literally means blooming, or flowering. Unfortunately, the word is most used in reference to corrosion, or the emergence of rust/filth on brick:

I, on the other hand, associate it with growth. Which, if you've been there, you'll know it's not always pretty. Sometimes you want to get rid of it, or restore to the state of origin. But morally speaking, where will that put you? No, physical, spiritual, and intellectual growth takes time, and pain, and extreme effort. That's where I am now, and where I always hope to be.