Sunday, January 30, 2011
picture perfect adventures
This is why I love Oklahoma City... If you just start driving in any given direction, chances are you'll find the coolest hole-in-the-wall locations just waiting to be discovered. That's what my friend Ali and I did this weekend, when OKC yet again surprised us with a 75 degree day in the middle of January. This was the outcome.... hope you enjoy :)
Friday, January 28, 2011
happiness
"There's no dollar sign on peace of mind, this I've come to know..." -Zac Brown Band
A) I'm obsessed with that band all of a sudden.
B) That line is my new life motto.
Happiness is a CHOICE!
Thursday, January 27, 2011
dreams and lessons
One thing you should know about me- I have some crazy dreams. Usually nightmares... but not like the kind where the boogie man jumps out of the closet or is hiding under the bed. Mine are usually a bit worse... It's fine, it's just something that goes along with what I'm dealing with in my life right now. The only bad part is that when I have those bad dreams, I usually can't stop thinking about them all day. My dream last night dealt with fear, and something precious being taken away from me (as is usual). But this something that was taken away was the one stable thing I had in my life. The one thing I thought would never leave or change.
It was devastating... but the more I've been thinking about it, that dream kind of taught me something. You know when you were little, and what you learned initially you applied to everything else? For example, associating that red/orange glow with heat. Even if it's lego block, it has that color, therefore it might burn you. I had that kind of scenario with someone close to me while I was growing up. They were (and still are) very hot and cold with their moods- sometimes warm, loving, and completely present, and other times aggressive, angry, and removed. Always hoping for the good became exhausting after a while, because I knew that it could be taken away so easily.
But what my dream taught me is that this childhood lesson doesn't have to follow me throughout my life. Just because the person in my story was the way she was doesn't mean that everyone I meet will be like that as well. Some people do stay constant. Some people do care more for others than they do for their own selfish desires. Some people really will love you even if you're in a bad mood (because in reality, your moods really aren't that bad). Some people really do see and notice you for the good and decent person that you are. And some people won't leave when things get bad.
Now for some wine and a girl movie with friends. Thank God for the good in life :)
It was devastating... but the more I've been thinking about it, that dream kind of taught me something. You know when you were little, and what you learned initially you applied to everything else? For example, associating that red/orange glow with heat. Even if it's lego block, it has that color, therefore it might burn you. I had that kind of scenario with someone close to me while I was growing up. They were (and still are) very hot and cold with their moods- sometimes warm, loving, and completely present, and other times aggressive, angry, and removed. Always hoping for the good became exhausting after a while, because I knew that it could be taken away so easily.
But what my dream taught me is that this childhood lesson doesn't have to follow me throughout my life. Just because the person in my story was the way she was doesn't mean that everyone I meet will be like that as well. Some people do stay constant. Some people do care more for others than they do for their own selfish desires. Some people really will love you even if you're in a bad mood (because in reality, your moods really aren't that bad). Some people really do see and notice you for the good and decent person that you are. And some people won't leave when things get bad.
Now for some wine and a girl movie with friends. Thank God for the good in life :)
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
monday type of wednesday
I've been walking around telling everyone it's Monday today. It's just one of those days, and it's only 10:30am! I even woke up this morning and thought, it's either gonna be a really good day, or a really bad one... I haven't decided yet.
Either way, I've decided to start my blog. It might be another one of the crazy impulses of mine that I think is a good idea until I actually get into the nitty gritty of starting it (kind of like my pet fish... that one's for you Andrew). We'll see. I think this will be therapeutic for me.
Efflorescence is word that literally means blooming, or flowering. Unfortunately, the word is most used in reference to corrosion, or the emergence of rust/filth on brick:
I, on the other hand, associate it with growth. Which, if you've been there, you'll know it's not always pretty. Sometimes you want to get rid of it, or restore to the state of origin. But morally speaking, where will that put you? No, physical, spiritual, and intellectual growth takes time, and pain, and extreme effort. That's where I am now, and where I always hope to be.
Either way, I've decided to start my blog. It might be another one of the crazy impulses of mine that I think is a good idea until I actually get into the nitty gritty of starting it (kind of like my pet fish... that one's for you Andrew). We'll see. I think this will be therapeutic for me.
Efflorescence is word that literally means blooming, or flowering. Unfortunately, the word is most used in reference to corrosion, or the emergence of rust/filth on brick:
I, on the other hand, associate it with growth. Which, if you've been there, you'll know it's not always pretty. Sometimes you want to get rid of it, or restore to the state of origin. But morally speaking, where will that put you? No, physical, spiritual, and intellectual growth takes time, and pain, and extreme effort. That's where I am now, and where I always hope to be.
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